In a never ending landscape of unconscious desire
Longing to find the one, who set me on fire
Maybe the words will slip from my lips
Perhaps it's all just going to fall to bits.
As we meet we don't acknowledge
The feelings
Deny our believing's
In one another.
So when the sun touches the horizon
As it sets behind earths magnetic hills
And night leaps into the day
Such a pain to say
So much more...
Just as dreams touch the night
They touch the day, everyday.
No longer hidden from my own hearts desire
So I found a way to search through the minds lair
Although the labyrinth is big
Bigger than I'll ever be
It's just a disillusioned rig
Shapes and noise form consequence.
Coming down the second sunset...
There she goes
As it too passes with time
The silver river of my mind
Waving, waiting
Anxiously anticipating
What we will say.
I start this series of words
With an open heart
That cares
I've been in love
I've felt afraid
My day was alright
Until rain drained it away
I dragged myself through hell
I found nothing but deceit
When the time was right
We had yet again to meet
But by then the wounds had sealed
By then I could not heal
Pain that you caused me
You did so intently
Fast forward some
Past the moon, past the sun
Find me nestled in the bed
Where she strokes me on the head
And we love and we touch
I realise what it is not
It is not you
Or what you did
There was more people
Hearts so big I wanted to cry
The love they gave, helped heal me inside.
This Christmas you’ll be tucking into some warm, succulent turkey I imagine! Although, nothing wrong with cooking any large bird, or having any alternative meats!
I’ve been venturing to different areas, some more decorated and in the spirit than others. I have my list of go to places for a meal or drink – those which are nice, have a Christmas theme going and are generally happy in nature. Unfortunately, where I live there isn’t many decorations around the town. Only a little. But I can always travel which is what I have been doing!
The time of year to relax, have fun and get into the spirit. Maybe you should try out a Christmas market. I’ve been trying to find one that stands out. As I said I have my preferences for locations to visit, but they never have a massive market. Some places have mostly food stalls. My recent trip to the Intu Trafford Center revealed a small festive fairground with ice skating which I did not know about! I will be going back at some point.
I also hope to be able to do some skiiing over this winter. I doubt it will be on a real mountain, but I nonetheless want to. That’s a great day out if you are struggling with things to do with the family. I’m hoping to spark some creativity in you by sharing this post. A lot of people are alone and struggle at Christmas. Why not go out and do it yourself? What I mean is that if you are struggling for ideas on what to do you should just do it yourself because you will probably have a good day.
There are loads of Christmas pantomimes on this time of year and a load of Christmas themed shows. Not to mention the markets in the cities, although primarily food based are still a good way to socialise if you are lonely.
Don’t feel pressured into being happy and cheery though. You aren’t doing anything wrong by simply not having a good time. People struggle, it’s human nature.
Seeing your love is the only thing that keeps me alive"Oh, what have you to I?" Darting beneath the silver mirror"I have to give you my love"enchanting reflective lakea cold cabin we meet"... and your love is a fictional lie"perches on the train line, railzapping hands we meettogether, we can fleeterror and hatedoubt and misfortuneswimming into the white cloudsangels surround, usloving you.
Together we can build a better lifebut alone we may feel full of strifewe sit and we commutewe eat and we waitpatient is the night owlwho flies before dawn
... and our feelings overthrow our heartsice under the feetwaiting to meet, someonewhen they arrive all the whilealone and emptyor so we think
Rain – a poem about the weather. Fitting since it’s hard rain at the moment!
Many people seem to be lonely, alone or wanting more company. Obviously, the last few years has been difficult and more isolating for everyone.
However, I looked at my own life and realised I too have become a victim of this loneliness. Before – or at least before the pandemic – I was perfectly content alone and being by myself. Only have I realised this last year has been particularly isolating for me and having developed a depression as well has made it difficult. I never considered being lonely a factor, but it is. I do interact with people, just not as much as I used too. Plus having lifelong health condition is itself a factor in depression too.
Why am I sharing this? Well, I wanted to talk about my feelings because I am sure others have felt this way too. Many of us go day to day without sharing a though or word with anyone. Talking to people is a great way to socialise and of course improve mental wellbeing. That doesn’t mean you have to talk about your feelings all the time, just that if you are lonely you are allowed to say that. Don’t be afraid to talk about your feelings.
It’s okay not to be okay. I reiterate this with love. I also feel like WordPress and my followers are an extended family. I enjoy reading all your posts and seeing your lives. Thank you for being a part of this wonderful platform and sharing your posts with me and others.
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My heart bleeds,
beads of rose quart,
for your breath,
as autumns cool breeze
,
chastises your being,
as sacred hearts,
we meet at midnight
jewels among the leaves,
ghostly fiery pains,
our uncoming youth,
grown.
Everlasting love love createsfear destroys... heartswaiting for the startof your lifein the fragile existenceof your mindhovering above crystal waterremember that there is law and orderin our lands... which we stole from etherupon the mountainstrung and hanging by the tetherof remorseacceded proceededyour burning heartset alight by the narrow lightshining through your razor sharp wirelight of eternity beginning the fraternityjewels, moon lightsnecklace or chalice... delightsthrone high so downinto the rustrocks, depthpanicscreamkilowatt manner power housetime to tame your plugsunplugfor infinity.
There's a boy with a million to one chancehis eyes are closed, he is waitingyet he knowsand he turnsto see his mothers smileso wide and caringthe moment created in timeceases to fadeall but decades have passedand he cherishesthat fleeting glimpsenow the boy has grownand the mother has gonebut the smile remainswhat was done, was done.
🌞 It is finally showing signs of summer here with a peak of around 22 yesterday and now peaking at 27 at my current location (abandoned caravan park). I am so glad to finally be able to enjoy some lovely weather. Sunshine is great for mental health, helps to boost our satisfaction and aid our happiness.
When it gets too hot though that can cause issues but for me, England is not hot enough most of the time so I enjoy every second of heat! I am so fed up of not going to places more often so I have decided to endeavor to go to the lovely beach at some point. 🏖
The relaxation of sitting on the beach staring into your own soul
Maybe I could do some surfing? Doubt it since I don’t have a surfboard! Must be cool to do this!🏄♂️
What is the colour of summer? People might associate red and orange with the season as it is hot. However for me blues represent summer! Why? Because blue is in contrast to the heat and allows us to feel that needed refreshing blue, the cool breeze, the blue water of the seas, the clear blue skies and the light coloured summer clothing.💙 Blue is my favourite colour too.
I think given the hard time everyone has suffered and the self repair and healing we have all been through we deserve to treat this summer with more love and care than any other. Celebrate and do things like it is the last summer on earth. Enjoy the moments, cherish the memories. Go to the beach, eat ice cream, go surfing, go eat out, go watch movies, go walking, go travel, do what you want to do. 😁
Don’t be afraid of doing it alone either. I see so many WordPress sites with people who share their lives and adventures and they do it alone! That is such an inspiration for me. I know they do things with others too, but still it is that solo element which I find amazing and motivating. I find inspiration from reading about their day trips, the holidays, the family days out, the dreams and the goals and the heartbreaks and setbacks. It makes us human. To live and to experience emotions makes us human beings. 💋
To live and to experience emotions makes us human beings
International Day for Biological Diversity is about our connection and relationship as humans to the natural world, earth. Without a healthy, varied and vibrant ecosystem to provide for our water, food, medicine, clothes, fuel, shelter and energy which we are completely dependent on, the world would be awful to be honest. The world should reconsider its stance on this issue.
If we don’t treat it with care and respect it will vanish. Sometimes it takes a lot of work, other times, the work can accumulate. So small changes that benefit the environment and wildlife, can contribute to an overall stronger and better outcome.
When you want to change, then change. Don’t feel like you have to. Don’t let destroyed rain forests, millions of killed animals, and dying ecosystems prompt that change. I feel natural awakening and acceptance of the issues are more important than being guilt tripped into them..
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