Every Day is a Fresh Start!

Welcome! How are you today? I am good, thank you! – English

Willkommen! Wie geht’s? Mir geht es gut, danke! – German

Прошу. Як справи? – Ukrainian

Laipni lūdzam. Kā jums klājas? – Latvian

With that random introduction I hope you are all well, sincerely. With time nowadays going slower – most likely due to it being beautiful autumn – I feel as if I can do more.

I am on some new medication to help with mental health. During this time in my life, I obviously need them. I was hesitant to mention this but why not? People struggle sometimes and you should not be afraid to talk about how you feel or your mental health! Good wellbeing is important to maintaining a positive mindset. Mindfulness and meditation can assist, as can healthy eating and exercise. Social interaction is important too. Allow your body and mind to heal any way you can. The downside is that I am slightly tired during the day – due to the sedating effects – although I take it at night.


My poem today is called Fresh Start. I hope it echoes my ambitions for the future. This year has gone by fast. We are already in October!

Plant the seed and watch her grow
power of the mind and I'm letting go
see her stem rise and the sun on her leaf
I can imagine, she'd be good to meet
her bright lit surface and rooted ground
she is growing, I am coming down
now she is high, reaching the sky
I am so glad, we can begin again.

Thanks for reading. If you liked then comment and like and reblog!


If you want to learn something new then consider using the internet! I say this as during the darker months keeping your mind active can make all the difference. I found some great sites to learn languages, for example; Lingoda and Pimsleur. Both offer language courses for a price each month.

Every day is a fresh start! Why not change every… single… day? Do something different every day. With the exception of some work which I would imagine involves some repetition. 😂😎

Morning Visit to – St Thomas’s Church

Since the last few weeks has proved quite challenging for me in terms of my physical health and mental health, I decided to start revisiting church.

I am a believer and to me keeping my faith strong is important for my mental and physical wellbeing. The only issue is that I lacked church visitation, which I am not too happy about. Mostly because I don’t like to attend on my own. Today I made an effort to go out around 10am to visit the St Thomas’s Church which is within an hour of where I live and has been on my radar for a while. I have seen many old churches which are in much better condition, this was still in good condition but inside you can tell it doesn’t have the funding that others do. I spoke to a gentleman who confirmed the funding was poor. I understand time are hard, but it is surely the Church of England that should be taking it upon itself to provide adequate funding and repairs and not the general public who can only give what they can afford most of the time.

You will notice that this is huge, like most churches, and it has an upstairs which I was not expecting. I will be returning in the near future for sure to attend a Holy Communion service. I was granted permission to take photographs.

I was respectful to the altar and not to cross the wrong boundaries, but the public can enter the choir gallery area.

The first thing I saw when I stepped into the church.

The church is large but apparently has a small congregation of people who attend regularly. I hope that more people will attend services here. It is one of a number of Church of England churches throughout Greater Manchester. I have yet to visit St. Peters church and St. Georges churches. I do intend to visit them but finding them open is very difficult considering that they are only open on Sunday for a brief time. This was not always the case.

Funding has blatantly decreased, and the public seem less interested in church and religions than ever before. The advent of modern belief systems has drawn a substantial part of the populace away from traditions like Christianity toward new age enlightenment beliefs and such. This is of course not deterring from the fact that there are around 2.83 billion Christians in the world making it the largest religion still to this day based on the teachings of Jesus Christ. A whopping 1.9 billion are Islamic and 1.25 billion are Hindu. Around 1.1 billion are non-religious. I hope that puts things in perspective – you should never feel ashamed of your faith. There will be others, so don’t be afraid to connect with them. The writer of Hebrews encourages the gathering together of friends and family as a community for support, love and wellbeing.

I was a little apprehensive about visiting as I haven’t done so in a while. I hope any future visits will provide an opportunity to connect with like-minded individuals. Thank you so much for reading and I hope the pictures are enjoyable too.

If you liked then please like, comment and let me know whether you are a part of a belief system or if you are an atheist.

Forgive

because there will be little time to forgive after death

you will be too late to embrace or accept the moment

a lifetime is a moment

would you forgive out of love

do you want to know me

or would you let something as fake as fear stop you being with me

I did what I needed to do

there is always room in my life, for you.

I Have Feelings Too

The body is made from flesh and blood and bone

but my mind is a precious moment

feels everything and everyone

so when you call my name from the mountain tops

and I see your smile which makes my stomach drop

you have thought and love on your lips

soothing to the ears

metal that smacks the rocks

a word or a fleeting threat

destruction inner turmoil

yet, you don't consider

how they feel

You have conscious thought and choosing that for negativity or to hurt others is not kind. To choose to say something with the intention of causing distress, to bully, to intimidate or to demean, shouldn’t be encouraged. Even comments you consider to be fairly ‘okay’ can cause others upset. A lot of people don’t express that hurt and they just move on. But think about that. It isn’t a control mechanism, it is respect for others which most people learn through childhood. I don’t think there is a place for deliberate hurt in this world or the next. Community doesn’t rely on one person. So, when one person is the negative source of hurt, cut them off. It can be painful, but better separated from the cause than be a part of it through blind acceptance.

Three Steps To Strength

Reckoning
It is the time for life, for love and for freedom
hearing you call my name across the still of the lake
watching the eagle fly
or the head of the snake
devoured

Breaker
My arms are holding onto the ledge
my eyes are deflecting the pain and the beast
praying to God, 'how can this be?'
my lonely existential anguish
breaker of the ravishing
illusions

Isolation
Cannot think, cannot heal
all I want, is to feel
love that you should have given
I would not ask for more
instead isolated
wondering what more
can be taken

Reflection
In the mirrors you are no longer a smiling face
no longer content to live in pain
acceptance of the truth
one escape or way out
... and where were all you living beings
... and the sunlight on my darkest nights
oh, 'just too busy, living for eternity' 

What Happened Next
I am the wall that divides heaven and earth
the soul who's million year adventure was built, verse by verse
alone and content, seeing evil beings, repent
I smile again, you see me strong
so many people, have now long gone
what happened next
I was the best, you were the rest
undying and no longer simplifying
my strength is a rock
the silent ticking, of the universal clock.

Some music to relax to.

Have I Been Deceived?

Have I been born

into a world of rivers of blood

the sea that crashes against the waves

a long lost sought fraught ticking clock

that rests near your side

how painful has it been

 to continue to look inside

amidst the passing of nature

the growth and the rise of spring

dwindling of winters pale gusts

locked away in your safe box

waiting for the sound that the bells shall chime

at midnight

where lost souls gather with the flocking birds

that is not what I heard


It’s about more than death, this is one of the greatest songs on the album. The message of hope and strength, born from pain and suffering.

Save Yourself – The Path To Forgiveness

Wizard wants to talk to you all about forgiveness. It is evident that through time and space that beings have had to forgive at some point in their lives. It is symbolic, it is truth, it is in all of us. Whatever you see forgiveness as, know that you are capable of it.

Before going any further, you may want to check out ‘emotions of colour‘ which touches on the connection between how colour affects us and how it can change us. It also touches on forgiveness. The poem Transcend is also good for looking at what forgiveness is.

Healing can be painful. It is a process and takes time which is what a lot of people don’t realise. You can’t expect to heal after a day of meditation, or after walking a hundred miles in the hope that you will suddenly rid yourself of any burdens such as guilt, shame or lingering anger at how you have been wronged. People who have been hurt, really hurt, which has caused them anxiety and depression, misery and other emotions, are the ones I am aiming this at. That is not to exclude those wronged in the supermarket checkouts, or those shouted at because they crossed the road at the wrong time. No, it is aimed to those who have deep emotional wounds which are likely to have cause them significant distress because if they can come to heal through time and to eventually forgive, then they will benefit the most, since it will be such a big part of development for them

Healing is the path to forgiveness. Without awareness of the issues you will find it hard to begin any journey to healing. Most people are aware of the issues which is great for starting to the path to forgive the wrongs they have suffered. Healing of the heart is where a lot of this will take place, since the heart is the center for love and for the connection to the universe. My post on healing the heart touches upon awareness. You have to be aware of the issues to change. Change will come from acceptance. Once you accept the issues and the pain you are in or was in, you will be on the path changing who you are.

To forgive takes more than to heal though, since we are talking about not only emotional healing, but mental, physical and spiritual healing. God knows what has happened to you. You were bestowed with free will when you were born, the will to change, the will to forgive. He sees everything, so no matter how alone you were or how alone you feel now, perhaps you are really struggling, know that He is there and waiting for you.

“I see everything they do. They cannot hide from me the things they do; their sin is not hidden from my eyes.”

Jeremiah 16:17-18

Rest assured that the above is as true as it gets. Although it can be frustrating and angering to accept that God sat by on the sidelines whilst you were seriously wronged, be assured, that you are independent and to interfere with humans in a supernatural way would impact free will. Those who wronged you have free will and He saw how they misused that to inflict suffering upon you and others.

Healing of the mind can be to work through ruminations. Ruminating is the act of focusing on something or to think deeply of something.

“Rumination is the focused attention on the symptoms of one’s distress, and on its possible causes and consequences, as opposed to its solutions”

Response styles theory – Nolen-Hoeksema

From the above, it is understandable to see how difficult is it to even start the road to recovery or healing when you may be ruminating about the distress you have suffered. That is not to say that thinking about the issues is bad. Thinking through the issues and incidents can help to bring you to the level of awareness and acceptance. Acceptance leads to change remember. But, you also have to work with your body and mind to heal. Maybe you could try meditation or exercise? Both are great at helping reduce feelings of depression and anxiety. You could change your diet perhaps? The point is change.

AWARENESS = ACCEPTANCE = CHANGE = HEALING = FORGIVENESS

Can you better see the path that is available to you? Imagine you are now at the change phase. You are changing those daily rituals or habits. You are adding in extra activities to heal the body and mind. You might be socialising more… or less. The paradox can be that you don’t have to do anything to change. What do I mean by that? I mean that if you lived a pretty busy life full of extra curricular activities, exercise and socialising then change for you might be more quiet time sat at home reading a book. Yes change occured but you didn’t focus on the developmental journey to heal, yet, you did. Can be confusing to understand. Know that change is brought about by you. I think a lot of people are expecting help from an external source. Granted the resources are there, but a lot of people aren’t getting the help they need which means they have to do it themselves. Having a supportive network will only benefit those who need it as part of their change and healing.

Over time and with dedication, you will change and you will start to feel that part of your life that you have been waiting for. Healing. Healing can occur earlier such as when changing. But, usually it occurs during and slightly after. After change is when your mind and body start to heal. Healing can be the most painful phase, because it is the phase of ‘letting go’ and being prepared to ‘forgive’ another. Forgiveness is not dependent on social norms, it is not dependent on others thoughts toward you. In fact, nobody needs to hear you forgive if you prefer to keep it to yourself. Just as prayer can be solitary, so too forgiveness.

I wrote about how healing can occur in the heart. The heart is where love is at. If your emotional experience has been hurt of the heart, or hurt through love, then this is where you feel that healing. Utilising the crystal stones as I mentioned, particularly rose, may assist this part. The healing process can be months, or years. Usually the change occurs over the same amount of time. Dependent on what the original wrongs against you were, it is not expected that you will bounce back immediately to the forgiveness stage. You will need to be ready for the moment, and need to do it with compassion and conviction. There is nothing worse than seeing someone go from awareness to healing to fail at forgiveness, because they didn’t believe it what they were doing. Have faith in yourself, take the time and don’t rush. You may be able to live a perfectly content life merely in the phases of healing and change, because in those phases you are focused on your inner light.

To forgive someone who has not repented can be extremely hard. I wrote about this and how there might not be any reason to forgive if there has been no repentance. I think I said something like ‘you cannot be expected to forgive someone who hasn’t repented.’ I also said that those people who are capable of this were incredible beings and I stand by that. The article below talks about the process of forgiving someone who isn’t sorry. The writer talks about how forgiveness can be done alone, how it might affect you and why you should forgive those who won’t repent. I use repent not because of its association with religion but its association with forgiveness

https://www.vox.com/22967752/how-to-forgive-someone-who-isnt-sorry-wont-apologize

You have come this far so thank you for reading. It wouldn’t be the end if I didn’t talk about the ‘what happens next’ part?

Once upon a time 
you were hurt 
you were scared
maybe you were just about ready to cry 
Now, a day more or a day less, you are here 
You see the world with beauty, not anger 
The sun and the skies, the rain coming from your eyes
I see the way and I want to embrace
change coming from the heart
like God, who brought me from the dark
to the light

If you reach the stage of forgiveness you have come far and you have done well. Goodness may seep from your heart and mind, your soul may be so strong that even the most evil of demons cower at your mere presence. Why? You have now saved yourself. You have taken the power of creation and existence and bestowed it upon yourself. You stepped to the side to let God have a say, and when you realised you had free will, you took a step back again, and decided that you had to make the choice, you had to change, you had to come to the point of forgiveness yourself. Despite what evil exists in the world, or what negativity tries to throw at you, or the lies and illusions of a world run by bad people, you did it.

Wizard doesn’t profess to be an expert on magic, but white magic is in abundance where forgiveness is present. To be good is to be white magic. You are making paths in space and time that cannot be undone. ‘For what is done cannot be undone.’ No matter how hard the journey or how isolating and confusing, you did it. You came through awareness to forgiveness and ultimately saved yourself. You have healed yourself. The emotional wounds which once had significance are evapourated. They no longer exist in you. You will focus on the adventures of the days to come, and of the love and beauty surrounding your heart. You will be closer to the connection of the universe than ever before. It is a wonderful experience. Light will radiate around you and no darkness shall befall you, for God will have seen your empathy and compassion and will command his angels regarding you.

Thank you for reading.

The Immortal Prison

A tale of a boy trapped within a dream for 40 years.

Trapped at 11
Released at 51
Spent a lifetime fighting the pain
Had enough gain
To learn how to train
Many days skiing
Many nights spying
So much more
To this lie
And released on bail
Inhumane
What did he learn?
That it was too long
That the rain was poison
Sunlight was fire
And each breath, Jesus’ beginning
Searching
Crying
Embracing
Changing
Accepting
Forgiving
Climbing
Reaching
Being
Believing 

As I have talked about this before, acceptance, one of the most difficult things in the world second to forgiveness. My post on healing the heart may help. This page has an interesting article on it (https://serenityrecovery.org/acceptance-really-mean/).

To accept, we have to acknowledge and be aware of the issue that we may be trying to get past, either consciously or unconsciously. Embracing and being, and accepting, being, seeing, as the boy did, and believing as he did when he returned.

A part of the song below which will not display for some reason. (Ravenskill, Dream Theater) has lyrics that are:

“I can’t go back
Hope fades away with each passing second
(Gabriel enters and Faythe embraces him.)
Faythe: Lost in this moment

Is where I want to stay
This can’t be broken
We need to find a way”

Do you understand what is happening in this scene? Is it too late or is it an illusion? Do they accept or deny the resolutions staring them in the face.

Heartache and How to Let Go

When you have heartache or issues of the heart, whether that emotional or spiritual, you will know or you will not know.

How can you tell?

Are you struggling to let go of an emotionally charged situation? Are you grieving for a loved one? Are you recovering from the break up in your relationship? Are you lacking self love or care?

A grief or emotional strain can cause issues in the body which might not lead you to believe the issue is one of the heart, Trust me. Sinus issues, headaches, crying, feeling guilty, grieving and struggling to forget hurt and love from a previous relationship are all signs that the heart is struggling.

Of course, physical ailments can cause issues too. You may be working through the issues without realising. Change comes from awareness. Awareness comes from acceptance. Accept that you are struggling, try to heal the heart and see if it helps.

So how can you do that? Well, firstly, you need self love. You need to get to grips with your emotions, and really make an effort to work with them to overcome any challenges that are popping up. If you cry a lot over something, consider working through it rather than leaving it until later. Have something to say to someone who broke your heart or caused heartache or doubt? Go and say it. Say it to yourself, say it to the world. Make sure you are holding yourself and remember, that you cannot hurt yourself unless you choose to. By ignoring emotional pain, you are harming your own psyche and spiritual body.

Other external sources to help the issues of the heart include the use of rose quartz.(https://www.healthline.com/health/healing-with-rose-quartz#:~:text=The%20rose%20quartz%20is%20also%20believed%20to%20have,when%20worn%20close%20to%20the%20heart%2C%E2%80%9D%20Birch%20claims.)

I recently bought a rose quartz egg, and I have felt the benefit already. I also bought some rose oil today, which would have a similar effect for issues of the heart.

An excellent article on essential oils which boost libido and help issues of the heart can be found @ (https://www.lovingessentialoils.com/blogs/essential-oil-tips/aphrodisiac-essential-oils) Although it talks about libido don’t let that put you off. What it is getting at is more than that. Increasing your libido can also assist the heart to heal, and to help overcome depression. It also talks about women being attracted to jasmine oils, I am a male and I find jasmine one of my favourites, so don’t let any sort of perception of who uses it put you off. Let your instincts guide you in choosing an oil. Rose is so potent for love, self love, just a tip, but get some.

The point is that you need to love yourself, work with yourself in a safe environment and don’t be afraid to work through the issues, however that may be. Once you free issues of your heart, emotional or whatever else, you will immediately feel the benefit.

It is not a short journey, but it will help you. Issues aren’t limited to heartache but can include anger about past relationships or current, fear, anxiety and others.

Good luck, and may God bless your heart.

This article provides some good insight.

The Days Long Gone

My depressed mind takes me back to a time

That time of great emotion and change

That time, so long ago

A strange moment I would know


Literal otherworld messages

deep and moving transgressions

passion for all existence

much inner resistance

ultimate finale


Hard choices

in the swooping fast lane

most daunting river of silver

your soul with ever deliver

until you see

the here and now

you take the bow

maybe a fall

deep hurting wall

inside


The hero did not need testing

but he did a lot of resting

those days

and those nights

and all of those internal fights

for release

a time long ago

when the hero took the brave move…

…and let go

8 years ago.