The Hurting Child (Sonnet)

To be born from the womb of the mother

who has not developed a bond to love

with the child who sits in the darkened room

alone and counting the days blend to night

or call on the God to answer his call

a solemn melancholy denial

of the hurt and lackluster suffering

that broke his soul to reach into the pit...

where he could reveal the brilliant beauty

the face of an angel sent from aether

"hold my hand tight" and let me be loved now

where the swan graces the shimmer of lake

feather dropped onto the brimstone water

secret boundary, eternal longing

Emotion of Colour

Colour my soul with your etheric crayons

paint my skin with eternal angelic wings

caress thy crown with purple lavender

The Holy Grail, illustration by Arthur Rackham, 1917

Lavender – relaxing and stress relief and protection

Romans 12:3 – “For by the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think of yourself more highly than he ought to think, but to think with sober judgment, each according to the measure of faith that God has assigned.”

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It hertz like love at 5:28 in the afternoon. Scatter the roses on my bed. Spray the oils around our room.

Stay true to the heart and the mind. The green heart chakra that connects us with the green earth. Be assured, your existence is considerable. Have the courage to go on even in self reliance, stand in the dark days of adversary.

Pslam 46:10 – He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”

Be still, know that everything is energy. That you were born from energy, that you will transmute into a different energy upon departure.

Blue, the colour of forgiveness. My favourite colour. Forgiveness is not weakness. It is acceptance. It is to achieve a higher state of self love and care than a lot of other people. I have been there, I have forgiven. I have felt the reward and been blessed by angels for my actions. You can’t expect to reach the better state of existence without giving it a try. The hardest part is acceptance and then, forgiveness. There is no easy path. You were not born because it was easy. Quite the opposite. You are here because life is a challenging journey. You should never be ashamed of who you are or what you want in life. Good people know in their hearts, that they are good.

Butterfly – symbol of transformation

I can’t profess to have all the answers, or to be able to give you a lot of information. I cannot give you a lot because you simply have to learn or experience it for yourselves. To rely on others experiences and understanding wouldn’t be fair to yourself or make sense. One journey or life is not identical to another. In turn and time, you will come to realise your own destiny and meaning. Transformation as represented by the butterfly, from larvae to having wings. Just as a hero must take a vast journey to sleigh a great evil. Just as the angels are helping people everyday to get their wings. So too, you shall know in time what it means to fly for yourself.

Forgiveness doesn’t come easily. Although to forgive is to be more powerful, it does not absolve those impure of heart or mind of sin. Repentance is needed. You cannot be expected to forgive without repentance. I don’t think we as humans are expected to go this far, although it does and will continue to happen, because here on earth, there is some incredible people. Bad people supposedly forgiving their evil brothers of sin, are no more enlightened, as their gains and relations are founded on evil intentions.

On that point, time to end.

Luke 12:3-4 – “Take heed to yourselves: If thy brother trespass against thee, rebuke him; and if he repent, forgive him. And if he trespass against thee seven times in a day, and seven times in a day turn again to thee, saying, I repent; thou shalt forgive him.

Take care all the best.

Take Some Time To Treat Thyself

Love is the way of the brave

and fear and hate is the way of the damned

so take some time to reflect

into the pool of your soul

and treat it with respect

an unwritten command

the hidden commandment


I have been unwell this past week. Today I took the chance at approximately 7pm to go have a foot massage, simply because a) I wanted to show myself some love and care and b) I saw the Thai massage parlour before and it is next to that Indian restaurant I reviewed back in January.

My first impression was that this is a nice and lovely place. It has a good atmosphere. I was not expecting the foot massage to be so intense, it also involved working the lower legs. Most certainly feel better and the cramps in the legs have gone. I said to them I would go back next Friday for the Aroma Therapy massage. The kind lady then said I get £10 off . Absolutely amazing and I genuinely mean that since they say that they have not been busy today because people have less money.

What is this post about? it is about self love and care, something I do practice, but I never thought having a massage would count but obviously it does because I feel better. I actually had some human physical contact, the exact thing the human race has been told to avoid for 2 years. Come on, stop avoiding handshakes (I can however on the basis that barristers don’t shake hands, but that is a post for another day). Hug one another, kiss each other, do anything you want so long as you make contact. At this point, the lack of social interaction or physical contact is still present in society, some kind of love is desperately needed. Please, listen to this call and act.

I am excited that next week I’ll be going back for the Aroma Therapy since it is a whole body one, but I do not feel comfortable being naked, so hopefully not.

Worlds Apart

Is it a paradox to miss you

or to feel that there was something between us

you see

I was there and present

you were cold and distant

for a breath

you showed human condition

changing position

making it real

showing that you can feel

and I saw into those eyes

mirror of your pain

the things you went through

left you forever changed

but hold on to that thing hope

a candle of hope

light in the dark

I saw it rising

you would always deny it

when we die

I'll see 

you'll see

that it was not worth the hate

worth the fight

I am always there

so you can make it right

but we'll never see one another again

and I'll always wonder

if you ever cared to begin with

until forever

we are worlds apart


Wide Eyes

Your wide eyes,
tearing me inside,
how I long to see the day when you smile,
how you can't wait to feel again,
smothered by black cloaked family,
kind of a cheap familiarity,
as I stare blankly at remnants of days gone by,
when you were consumed by the need to cry.

Wide eyes,
lacquered with fear,
out of tears,
left out in the rain,
drying as you step onto your mental plane. 


Follow your dreams and ambitions, don’t let anyone deter or hurt you. Never change to suit someone else’s agenda, be yourself, live and laugh. Explore topics of interest, get educated or start a career in a field you like. 

“Walk on the path that is empty and eventually, people will follow.”

It gets hard at times, harder so when you are pushed and beaten to the bottomless pit by greedy vipers intent on ruining the love and compassion that pours from your heart. It’s not enough to stand aside and let the darkness encapsulate the light or sit silent as the clouds block out your sunshine. It’s not enough to deter the evil whilst passively ignoring the cruelty that is so dominant in the world. It takes truth, courage, fearless warriors that are destined through their lives to lead and rise up and rebel. There is no violence to come, only peace. Peace can attain a thousand armies of justice, more so than the pitiful weapons of the scared. True love and insight is born from the seed planted since time immemorial. An angel guides you into the chambers, you seek your path and beat it until all those nay-sayers are begging for forgiveness. You walk confidently among the beautiful hearted, the caring and sweet tendered, musically lipped friends that you are safe with.

Fear no evil, see no evil, be no evil.