Building a Better Life

Sometimes I drowned under unbearable memories

Pain that you caused is always under the surface

Pushing to the top

Making a nuisance

You don't know or care

Would rather drink it away

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Well I'm more than that

Better than that

Stronger than you

My heart is full of love

I am the light of the world

I am the peace in the night

The sunrise on the horizon

A faint whisper on the air

Loves eternal embrace

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Now my life is a straight path

No more pain do I feel

I am more than your evil

That will burn forever

In regret and hate

Whilst I make

The most of it

Winter Short Story Competition

If you enjoy writing blogs, short stories or even poetry then you might be interested to enter.

From 1st December you can submit a short story to me for publication on my site. Stories should be within 1,500 words and focused on the holiday season and or Christmas themed. Entry is free. This means anything around this season is okay. Follow the guidelines below:

  1. 1,500 words limit – anything exceeding this won’t be accepted
  2. Themed around the December holiday season/Christmas
  3. No abuse in an form
  4. ONE story allowed to be submitted
  5. Must include word count, name and any site details at top of story
  6. Correctly formatted. Ex. 12 point Times New Roman double spaced
  7. Submit to psychwizard@yahoo.com
  8. CLOSES 15TH DECEMBER- IF NOBODY SUBMITS I’LL EXTEND IT

Your story if accepted can be published on my site. You can’t distribute it yourself if you win. My site will have the exclusive right to post it. Any violation of this will mean the story will be removed.

Other than that this is a great bit of fun! I really am excited to see what comes up!

The Farm

The animals they waddled two by two

 the farmer marches through muddy goo

cows that moo

grass and grain

the pain of harvest 

animals and foods

economic disaster.

Written in response to Lady Jabberwocky prompt ‘Farm’

Owl

The Owl can fly when it wants to

If it sees a prey worthy of the flight

When the rain has exposed its location

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Yet a man cannot run away when he wants to

So, the owl observes

As the men they drown in pain

The owl knows who is to blame


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My Upgraded Site – What it Means For You

Good day and welcome to my site. I have taken a leap and upgraded my WordPress site which I hope will enable me to start offering some exclusive content to viewers.

Initally I was hesitant as I wanted to make some money as well. But in the end I’ve taken the decision and now have to follow through.

What it means is this:

  • You can now access paid content – this will most likely be access to specialised content, like videos and photos, particularly special news and poems. I won’t disappoint you with the paid content although I am suggesting that you should not be in any way offended if you re asked to pay to watch a video. It is partially due to wanting to keep my privacy. I have no intention of ever uploading my face on camera for you, so don’t expect video chats.
  • You may see ads on this site – not WordPress ads as they have been removed.

I am hoping that it will boost traffic considerably although I do get quite a lot anyway.


Follow me on YouTube – my new account with photos of places I visit. Plus videos of course to come. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC3nDZox5fVJRBaWLdKTplgg

Buy Me a Coffee – my new account is now live for donations. Any change from this will go to charity https://www.buymeacoffee.com/thomasmaxw3

Call My Name

As the sun slowly slips aways

behind the daze haze

my mind begins to wander

little too see but through your words

finding peace and serenity

call my name, say it again, call my name

holy day of days hast you the way

blinding autumn blight

the orange leaves falling gently into the night

gentle wheezing 

eternity is but a meaning

call my name

don't call my name

Banshees of Inisherin

The Banshees of Inisherin is a 2022 black tragicomedy film written and directed by Martin McDonagh. The film follows lifelong friends who find themselves at an impasse when one abruptly ends their relationship; Kerry Condon and Barry Keoghan also star. It reunites Farrell and Gleeson, who previously worked together on McDonagh’s directorial debut In Bruges.


Starring: Colin Farrell and Brendan Gleeson

Genre: Drama, Comedy, (Black comedy/tragicomedy)

Directed by: Martin McDonagh (In Bruges)

Highly rated by Rotten Tomatoes at 97% and IMDB at 8.2.

This review is based on a viewing of the movie yesterday. I was looking for something good to watch at the cinema after missing Bullet Train and found the movie called The Banshees of Inisherin starring reuniting stars Colin Farrell and Brendan Gleeson who had previously paired up in the black comedy In Bruges – also directed by the Martin McDonagh. I didn’t read any reviews prior to seeing the film and went with an open mind. Having seen the trailer it looked interesting enough.

So, the film starts off pretty quickly and there is no explanation or showing of the main characters relationship before this crisis hits them. Pádraic Súilleabháín (Farrell) and Colm Doherty (Gleeson) were obviously close friends having lived on the island for many years, sharing the same pub. However we are dropped right into Colm telling Pádraic that he no longer wants to be friends, and that he should stop talking to him. This last for some time, about half an hour of the film is this tension back and forth as the Irish men seperate and the locals who live on the island begin to take it seriously.

It is a rather sad and callous action for Colm to cut his friend off like this. But he reasons that it is because Pádraic is dull and talks **** for hours on end. Colm would rather have peace, play his violin and make music that Island will remember. This is occuring on an island off the coast off Ireland during the civil war, some time ago now. As the reality settles in and Pádraic struggles to find the reason, and finds it hard to accept, he is trying to make amenda believing he is in the wrong, yet Colm doesn’t want to hear any of this.

After some time, Colm makes the ultimatum that every time Pádraic talks to him he’ll cut one of his left hand fingers off. The hand he plays the violin with. With time, and the two in silence not helping one another, Pádraic makes the mistake of talking to his ex friend, revealing to the pub goers, and island folk that it was no bluff. Despite living with his sister, Pádraic is lonely, and misses his friend, as is his sister. With time the loneliness grows. But Colm is pushed further and eventually cuts all fingers off.

As for the characters; interesting to say the least. The humour is very stark and black but does well in places. The over arching theme is loneliness, despite me thinking it was about something else entirely. The two best friends, now seperated because Colm wants peace, ultimately proves too much for Pádraic who can’t handle it. He’s soon talking to animals and keeping them in the house for company.

It is quite dramatic, yet quite tear jerking because the man can’t move on easily from this relationship. On the way the other island residents soon turn out to be just as callous. But it isn’t this that causes us to connect. We are seeing that the world here on the island is far sinister, it’s isolating. Something that we all can relate to. The friendship that was broken was strong on one end, but revealing on the other. Colm, potentially wrestling with his own demons is clearly not in his right mind to do these things, and neither is Pádraic.

What we are left with is a broken relationship and isolation on both ends. What should have been an amicable departure turns sour. Yes there is humour, but there is more drama. I was left hoping that something good would happen, but it sort of fizzles of at the end of the movie. The ending is abrupt and we have to piece together whether the men are friends again, or simply calling it quits on this fighting. There is some heart touching moments, and yet bitter moments. Characters struggle with the realities and some perish, telling of the high rates of depression among the isolated and indeed in those times – and even to this day.

What I wanted was more comedy, a bit more backstory into the friendship, like a scene of the two friends etc. Without this, it sort of plays out as a very weird, but likeable story. There is more to the men than we realise. There is more to the residents, to the island, to the story. This goes beyond a friendship breakup to the harrowing inner workings of a society held together literally by space and time.

Acting is super, and I didn’t expect less from the Irish pair Colin Farrel and Brendan Gleeson. It was a welcome reunion, and you can see that the pair on on form, at the top of their game. But they’ve always been good actors, this is just a very different acting style, almost like watching a play at the theater. The island location is beautiful, the decadent decaying homes of the farmers run down and revealing of their hearts desire. A movie I’d like to watch again. Although the dark air to the film is a little unsettling. Some genius somewhere will decode all the symbolism and things to tell us the real meaning and happenings in time.

This is far from a comprehensive review: so, thank you for reading! I give it generous: 4/5 because I like these sorts of movies, small places, tight acting, stringent storylines and potent drama.

Rating: 4 out of 5.

Wellbeing in Colder Months

Wellbeing is the state of being comfortable, healthy or happy. Welfare of individuals is important year round but more so when the sun sets earlier during the autumn, rising later in the morning, leaving people in the dark most of the time.

This can have a significant impact on… you guessed it, mental health. With reduced daylight hours we can suffer from vitamin d deficiency – a crucial vitamin made in the body when skin is exposed to sunlight. This can result in depression and other mental health symptoms, like anxiety.

You can read more about vitamin d, and how you can raise those levels here on the NHS site: https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/vitamins-and-minerals/vitamin-d/

For many the darker days bring the feeling they want to comfort themselves. Maybe the lack of light, or lack of social interaction, the cold or even a general unhealthy diet can make it more difficult to get through.

Did you know that social interaction and a close-knit society can help depression?

This is the number 1 wellbeing tip I recommend for you. Science has studies on this.

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/7815303/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2860146/

There seems to be a lot of emphasis on other areas of life when it comes to wellbeing and staying happy. A good wellbeing plan might incorporate exercise, healthy eating and a regular sleep schedule for instance. But it might also lack any indication of a social interaction time.

I’ve touched before on how people can interact in more than one way. Notable is the of social media, video calling software both on phones and computers and just a general increased connectivity in the world. However, on the other end we also have seen numerous people talking about the increased isolation, depression and general mental health problems as a result of people not interacting, despite the increased connectivity. It could mean that face to face interaction is more effective. I believe this is the case, as seeing people in person is usually more rewarding than receiving a video of each other doing things and then simply talking about it over a call.

Having a pet that can interact will no doubt help you battle feelings of isolation. There is no need to feel isolated though.

Having a healthy eating plan, a regular sleep schedule, daily exercise and getting up and getting the early sun are basic methods to keep wellbeing stable. To take it further you could indulge in those feel good things you enjoy, like hot bubble baths, hot cocao beneath a thick blanket in the evenings, watching a movie alone or better yet going to the cinema with someone.

Take it from me that a GOOD WELLBEING PLAN will do you a world of good this autumn and winter. With increasing prices it is highly likely that the majority of people will not be doing much at all.

There are those will money though who will simply continue to go on expensive holidays and buy ridiculous priced items whilst the rest suffer though.

Try making a wellbeing plan today. Or share some tips below in the comments for everyone to try! Here are some things I like to do.

  • Watching a movie beneath a thick blanket with hot drink
  • Watching travel videos of hot countries
  • Reading and writing
  • Going to bed early and reading in bed
  • Walking in the early mornings or trying to get out at least once a day for a ‘leisure’ walk
  • Eating healthy
  • Contacting people
  • Painting
  • Playing video games (helps me feel connected, and works for me)

Passage Through Fall

As I sit by the big tree
orange seas of leaves beneath my feet
seeking a friend or maybe a light
will you make it to morning, or fall to your hearts delight?
as the sunshine comes through
a whole series of thoughts unto you
now you are free
as it hits your eyes
as you begin to realise
our passage in time
is but a string in a line